When I reflected how I used to approach life in my teens throughout early adult years, I realized being in a state of neutrality was such a challenge. I easily was overpowered by the extremes of emotions and if it wasn't blinding depression, it was a state of reasonless euphoria. I'd like to think that I have gotten quite used to the movement of emotions within that I mind them no more. In myself and in others, they play out the same way. From an energy of affinity to an energy of aversion. Though, I pay heed to information that might get convoluted in knots of physical sensations, I rest more within the groove after the dust settles and still water comes through. This, of course, took quite a bit of suffering on my part. The suffering was optional, as they said but for me, the depth of it sprung me out of the vital darkness. I found a light. It's there not because I've relinquished the dark. It's there inside the darkness. So then, I learned how to hone something dark and something light and come to be, more of myself.  I see this in others, too. It's an amazing thing to observe. There's within that space of noticing, I become acutely aware, I have no monkeys in the circus under my name. I'm just there.